We all have parts of us that we lock up, that we're ashamed of, that we try to hide, parts of us that we feel like are not good enough or worthy enough to love the Lord with, whether they be memories, events, emotions, experiences, relationships, phases of our life, choices... But that's simply because we don't truly know who we are.
We think that what we do, say, think, or what others say, do, or think about us is what determines our value.
That’s all valuable but it doesn't determine our value.
Where does my value come from?
Then we have to pose these questions- Who am I and where does my value come from?
Thomas Merton explains that we come into this world strangers to ourselves, facing outward because of our flawed nature. Holiness and fulfillment come from looking inward and finding that everything we thought we lacked and desired so badly has been there all along.
Augustine sums it up by saying, "Noverim te, noverim me"- May I know you God, may I know myself. We can't do one without doing the other.
Our true identity is that we are Christ in us. In the words of St. Paul, "It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me."
St. Clare also says it beautifully- Christ makes of me another himself. We are complete, whole, beings of joy, love, peace, truth, and goodness.
Our mission is to claim that identity, to claim our wholeness, to believe God wants only good things for us, believe he desires our wholeness, to give every aspect back to God so he can show us who He is and who we are.
Artistic expression as a tool
Here at Wholistic Christian Woman, our emphasis of artistic expression is meant to be a tool to integrate our Beloved Jesus into every part of our being- body, soul, and spirit. It helps us, especially as women, as co-creators, to love God and be loved by God in a more complete way.
When we become creative, we become courageous. Courage is the starting point for healing and transformation which we all need to get to a place where we can love and be loved by God holistically.
What are the areas in my life where I feel broken and unlovable? What are the areas I feel are beyond help and hope of redemption? Who or what do I look to to affirm my value? My kids, my job, possessions, successes, money, a beautiful home, my spouse? Do I believe everything I could ever need is within? Do I trust God can make of me another himself? Do I make the time to remind myself of these truths or do I give more time to the negativity?
Abba Father, I know you don't make mistakes. You make perfect creations, but through the fall of man, I became a stranger to myself. Please soften my heart and help me believe I am a being of wholeness, life, goodness, freedom, and joy. Show me how I can remind myself of this truth in my daily life- whether that be repeating affirmations, making time to be creative, or spending time with you where I talk less and hear you more.