Drowning in "If only's"
It’s so easy to see our body, thoughts, feelings as causes for pain and frustration. We slowly break ourselves down with the “If only” statements swirling around in our head...
If only I didn’t fear so much.
If only I didn’t have chronic anxious thoughts.
If only I didn’t have constant headaches.
If only I didn’t get PMS.
If only so and so didn’t make me feel so unraveled.
If only this relationship was restored.
If only I could get over that one wound.
If only I didn’t feel so stuck.
If only I could get over this pain.
All of this can stem from pride. We feel like we or life should be more perfect. We still manage to get surprised and disappointed when it isn’t. We are always going to have circumstances around us that put pressure on us to break down.
We were made for more
But we weren’t given spirits of cowardice. We were made as complete, full beings.
Our body, soul, and spirit is exactly where it should be right now.
You are perfectly where you should be.
You are good.
God created our being. That means he created our spirit, soul, and body.
Anything God creates is a wonder to behold.
You are a wonder to behold.
Today, instead of criticizing and condemning my being, I choose to love and nurture it.
Instead of insulting the Creator by judging His work, I will praise Him for the wonder of this being.
I let go of the “if only’s” and embrace this gift.
I am good.
I am enough.
I am a wonder to behold.
“For it was you who created my being,
Knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I thank you for the wonder of my being.” Psalm 139
What are my “If only’s”? What have I convinced myself I need to be complete? Do I believe I am exactly where I need to be? Do I believe that I am enough? Do I believe I am a wonder to behold?
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Abba, you made me good. You made me complete. I have all I need. Please help me to take that leap of faith and trust that you do not make mistakes. I was not a mistake. You made me intentionally. You made me with the purpose of loving you and glorifying you with my life. I let go of the “If only’s” and trust I am a wonder to behold because I am your creation.